this would be the last week of my first semester. and boy, buti nalang onti na lang ang aking kailangan gawin. karamihan kasi nung mga kailangan kong gawin ay nagtambakan last week. maniniwala ba kayo na nagkaroon ako ng 8 exam the past week alone. sa sobrang dami ng aking kailangan gawin, ito, ngayon lang ako ulit nakapagsulat sa aking blog.

bad trip talaga yung tambak na trabaho last week, as in. i just i hope na i did well dun sa mga exams ko. sayanga kasi yung average ko eh, and most importantly, may hinahabol akong scholarship which i really badly need. grabe, ang layo nung average ko ngayon sa averages ko the past 2 semesters. parang bigla na lang silang naglaglagan lahat sa aking harapan. i really can't pinpoint what i have been doing wrong pero ganun talaga eh.

although sabi naman ng ibang tao ok naman daw grades ko.

bukas na lalabas ang aming bio exams, sana talaga mataas ako dun, kaso feel ko hindi na talaga eh. o well, ganyan talaga ang buhay, hindi ko lang siguro pa kayang tanggapin.

ang boring ko na, puro grades na lang aking sinasabi, tang-ina, wala na ata akong buhay...

kakagaling lang namin sa pampangga kahapon. one of the high points this sem, parang ang dami naming nagawa in a short span of time, yun yung mga tipo ng times na ayaw mo ng magend kaso kailangan mo na ring umuwi dahil meron ka pang 8 paper na due the next day.

ang galing, that was probably the first time i was actually inside a casino. it was kinda shocking seeing all the people wasting a lot of money amounting even up to 6 figures a night. guess what, we actually won 1500 from the slot machine. ang galing di ba, who would expect that our last coin would give us 1500 pesos worth of credits. ang saya talaga.

gusto na nga uling bumalik ng fontana at sakyan ulit si rodney. promise, it would prove to be an experience not to be missed, ang saya kasi sobrang bilis nung water slide kapag siya ang kasama mo, ang wild, hindi mo talaga maiiwasang hindi sumigaw habang pababa kayo. sana talaga maulit yun.

grabe ang tagal na rin pala since i have written my last entry. i just couldn't find the time nor the energy to do it because of the amount of work that was needed to be done last week. actually i had to do something this morning, however, i realised that this would only be one of the instances wherein i could relax so i simply decided to surf the net and update my blog.

would you believe that i haven't checked my mail that long that when i opened it, BOOM, i have 54 new messages. ang dami kong kailangan basahin, sobra! i haven't been surfing the net recently, i didn't realise that my mail would bulk up like that. it was a good thing that yahoo provides 100 mb of mail space.

i am still mentally and physically tired right now. i did a lot of exhausting things last week, i had a free clinic to attend, about 4 tests to prepare for and a debut to go to. i was so tired yesterday that i slept at around 8 pm and i just woke up at around 530. my head aches, my body aches, GOD!

yahoo!!!

tapos na ang aking kalbaryo! natapos din ang aking mga requirements for the whole week. though lacking sleep, generally ok lang naman ako, buhay pa nga gaya ng aking laging sinasabi. pero, grabe, pagod na pagod na talaga ako, i badly need rest kaya lang parang kung kelan ko gusto ng matulog ayaw naman ng katawan ko.

bad trip, i couldn't watch the UAAP cheering competition on sunday because i wasn't able to scoop up tickets. and even if i did, ang hirap, wala din akong matinong kasama. i guess i just have to settle watching it at the comfort of my friend's house, who readily volunteered it by the way, granted that we finish our exhibit set-up tomorrow. oh well, i guess it's better than not watching at all.

sayang at hindi ako nakasama sa labas nung org namin ngayon. nagtrabaho kasi sa exhibit eh and most importantly, wala na rin akong pera. parang bigla atang nagzero ang aking cash on hand and what's worse about it is that marami pa akong utang na kailangan bayaran. o well, there will be other times, ang focus ko ngayon pahinga at magenjoy naman habang pwede pa ako.

sige, guess i better start doing that now...

it's a question that's been bugging me for the past 12 hour now...

nagsimula ang lahat ng iyan sa isang kuwento na binasa namin sa Linangan. "Kabilang sa mga nawawala" i don't know if you're familiar with it, but its a really good story and i would recommend it. siguro nagustuhan ko siya kasi may pagka tibak din ako myself kaya medyo nakakrelate ako. however, this was not what bothered me... whaty bothered me most was when started to discuss: "sino ang mga kabilang sa nawawala?"

then it all happened, people started sharing experiences on when at a point in time did they lose themselves and consider themselves part of the lost people. or things that happened when they felt that they are not themselves or they don't realy know who they are. deaths. past love lives. past experiences with friends. kakaiba yung discussion. iba yung feeling kasi parang this was just a GE subject (di ba, not even a major class) and we where here, discussing things na actually were quite uncomfortable...

or siguro baka sa akin lang...

i woke up at around 3 am and i found myself drenched in sweat

it was so hot that and i don't know why. there was also no wind coming from anywhere. as i was studying for a biology quiz later, i just had to leave my study post (which i do not normally do in between study periods) and get chilled water to drink in an attepmt to cool myself down. the electric fan was not enough... the room was getting too stuffy... i must get out...

damn, as it turns out, it was hotter outside than i thought. it was a good thing though that there wasice water in the fridge that somehow cooled my down a bit. however, i still could not find a place to study, so i just went to our shop and just surfed the net. i figured out that i could not pretty much do anything in this setting.

i had a lot of things in my mind yesterday. my head became so heavy that i decided to sleep in the light that it would be gome the next morning. i slept as soon as i finished my dinner. well it did, but i could still mot study becuase its really too hot for comfort...

what could i do... shit... my class starts at 7 in the morning... i have to study somehow...

i suddenly feel alive again!

god, i had one of the driest days of the semester today...

classes ended up being suspended any way...

tough day, upon stepping down from the jeep i was riding, my friend called me saying "wala ng pasok". arrrrrrggghh!!! i feel so irritated and frustrated. had i known that classes would have been suspended anyway, i would not have stressed myself waking up at around 3 in the morning just to study for my chemistry quiz.

it was 630 in the morning and still, here i was waiting for my teacher to confirm if we were to have classes this day. she simply replied that she was not sure because the university had yet to make an announcement. so hurried, i fixed myself and went to school. what was i to do, i could not gamble missing a lab experiment and a quiz today.